I havent put up a journal lately, and i really need to speak my mind to get all this bottled up shit out. so here it goes,

Sooo, school sucks this year, real bad. Marching band season was great, but thats when i realised how much i really loved someone. But, yeah, marchingband seasons over with even though we have two more reahearsals. Thats the first, we'll be playing for the governors cerimony on the 29th on etv i do believe, so that'll be amazing. My feelings for him havent changed and that depresses me alot, he got himself a girl friend who i know is up to no good, i dont say that out of jealousy, i say that because she hurt one of my best friends in multiple ways and she was wrong for it. I hope they break up or something and maybe, just maybe, this time, he'll notice me, if not then hell with that. My grades were good but on my most recent interum, i got two f's. Which i dont get, one of my classes (eng 3 cp) was just a B like four weeks ago, i blame the fact that my damn teacher only graded three things so that'll drop my grade. My other class, (us history) is getting harder cuz he has given us less grades too, so thats bringing me down. Hm, i feel like i got way better at drawing out of no where, it scared me but im cool with it, i keep drawing my oc ouusa, and i plan to put my most recent pic of her up soon. i need to color it sometime, i should put two versions up, Not only my drawing improved but i feel like i improved in my musical abilites as well. You see, i play the alto saxaphone and i feel like i got better because i've been practicing alot. my goal is to make all state this year, i only have two years left to try to make that goal, unless u can do it for college, which would be orgasmic. Mady showed me some new stuff im addicted to, its call Dr.Horribles sing along blog. IT IS AMAZING. My friend got real bitchy out of nowhere and im slowly breaking a tie. I dropped out of our shadow cast group today as well, im just not into it like i was before. I met this awsome chick named robin at books a million, shes a cosplayer, yay! me and some of my friends are making up a skit group and i plan to be sai for it as my main character. I cant wait to be him, im going to try to be him at momocon but FIRST i need his cosplay, if you know any cheap good ones, send me a link, the best one i found its $120.00 im praying my mom will buy it. Other than all that, i feel real pretty lately, i changed up the way i dressed and my hair and i've lost some weight, so i feel like im a different person. Thats nice, thanks for reading all this if you did! love u lots~<3